Term 2 - Blog 081-085

dimache le 8 fevrier 2009 >>
jeudi le 12 fevrier 2009

I haven't blogged for a while. I guess the stress of the Science Fair overwhelmed me. Now that it has completely lifted, I think I can manage blogging decently now.

School is passing by so quickly. Everyday, after school, time passes by so quickly. Still, during school...it's like an eternity. It's strange. School seems to make time run slower. It's not really possible, but it sure feels that way.

Listening styles...Even though I've been trying to get with the program, I think I still space out much more than I should be spacing out. It's unfair to my peers, but I can't help it. At least I'm aware of it...Maybe if I try harder, I'll stop spacing out and start really listening to others. It's the least I can do. After all, my friends are really great and they're always helping me even when I don't need them to.

Day 2s are getting better. As much as I hate to admit it, but MY days aren't as bad as I originally thought. Things are getting a lot less stressful and I don't know whether that's because I'm used to it now or whether things have really just calmed down a lot. I think the fact that the Science Fair is over plays a great factor, but I think I really have gotten used to it. We're halfway through Grade 8 now, it should be easier.

Highlights of the past few days? I really don't have any. I have noticed a lot of card playing lately...It reminds me of elementary. During Grade 7, we spent about 70% of our lunchtime and recesses playing cards. It was fun and I really miss Grade 7. Last year, I really wanted time to just stop and never let Grade 7 end. Still, I'm not saying Grade 8 is the worst thing ever. It just doesn't seem as cheerful and lively as elementary school. I guess it's natural to miss elementary school since it's the first year of high school, but I don't think that's the case right now... Some people actually don't miss Elementary at all...so I think it's just because Elementary contained so many happy memories that I miss it.

Days are way too fast. It seems like one day's ending and I'm struggling to keep up with the Earth's schedule. I know that seems silly, but that's really how I'm feeling. Sometimes I get depressed or confused because I don't know what I'm doing and I feel really left behind. I don't know why, it's just something inexpressible that is happening to me. The world is dying...I can feel it. I wish I could do something...

Wishing. It seems like every blog I do a load of that. Still, it's not like I do it intentionally. It's just my attitude is a wishful one. I am always wishing for one thing or another. I wish it was summer. I wish we could all get along. Wish. Wish. Wish. I don't know why I keep doing it, but I think I actually like wishing. It gives me something to hope for and aspire to. They keep me confident throughout the day.

Am I the only one wishing?