Term 2 - Blog 089-91

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mercredi le 18 fevrier 2009

Time's still passing quickly. It seems like there is nothing I can do to catch up. I keep forgetting to blog and I get a lot of mood swings. Is it my rebellious stage or am I just being too self-conscious? AHHHH! I don't know what's wrong with me. I wasn't like this in the beginning of the year...My confidence is slipping...I blame it on...No, I mustn't blame it.

I think I'm slowly going insane since I lost my self-confidence...*ugh*. I don't think I've been a very good listener this week either. I think I'm too self-centered. Or maybe not. Who knows?

Overview of my day (Wednesday):
A MY day.

Science- It was okay. Everyone got all stressed over this vocab assignment, it was incredibly tense in the room, but I managed to get out of the place alive, didn't I? Heh. Maybe a little bit of me really did die in that classroom.
Applied Skills- My favourite MY class. Probably even my favourite class of all. Still...I received a mood swing...I normally don't have those at school, usually only at home when no one gets worried. ARGH. Something's seriously wrong with me. Carmen was totally concerned too...sorry =/ Other than that, nothing else went wrong. I loosened up towards the end of the class.
Lunch- BOOK TESTS. TENSION. IS. IN. THE. AIR. OMG. OMG. OMG. Okay, spazz over. I tried to do some listening during lunch. Not much interesting to listen to though. I've learned something...no one confides in me. Am I really that bad? I have to be more aware of this...I don't want "bad listener" or "gossip girl" as a personality trait. That's just horrible. I hate hurting others' feelings.
Socials Studies- GREAT. Of course it would be. I did a really nice job of listening to the powerpoints, does that count? I didn't think so. Still, I will try to improve my listening in any way that I can.
English- Something's wrong. No, not with me this time. Jessica...she was oddly depressed and stressed out. She's usually the optimistic and happy one. This isn't good. We did ask her if anything was wrong...and even though she said "I'm fine" I know something isn't right. I won't push her though, that will just make things worse. She seemed to be in the same state I was during AS. A mood swing? I don't think it was that simple for her. She must really be carrying the toll of MY.

In the end, I guess I am moving along better when being conscious of being a good listener. I hope I'll do a better job though...I also hope that I won't make anyone feel hurt because of what I say. Sometimes my personality just lets hurtful words slip out, but I'll try to change that trait. I'll withstrain my hurtful thoughts.

I'LL TRY MY BEST <3