Term 3 - Blog 03-6

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samedi le 7 mars 2009

Sorry for not blogging for so long! I was kind of got too excited on Wednesday since we were going on a field trip. The field trip is awesome! Although, I broke the vow of silence way too fast. It couldn't be helped, I didn't want to fall after getting up so high on the wall. Rock climbing is awesome! It would be great if we could go again next year, but that's highly unlikely. *sob*. Oh well, a girl can always wish, can't she? Hehe, rhetorical questions ftw!

Friday was extremely hard for me. I'm not the type of person who can keep silent well. And I didn't, I'm ashamed to admit it, but I couldn't even keep the vow of silence for the 5 hours of school. Ashamed. A lot of people broke it, so I guess that makes me feel a little better. I lasted the first two Blocks, but I accidentally spoke in Block D. *sigh* It's hard for me not to speak out, I'm so used to it, I just forget. After school, I felt worse. I don't know why, but I'm just not feeling great. I'm not sick, but there's something else wrong. Ah. I just don't know. I hope all the sick people get better soon though =] Almost half of the MY class isn't feeling well. *sigh*.

Today's been bad. Not down the drain bad, but just bad. It seems like I never remember to blog anymore and I've been taking way too many naps. Sometimes I think I'm just tired with life. Even something as daring as rock climbing only fuelled my happiness for a couple of days. My life is full of highs and lows. One moment I'm as happy as ever and the next, I hit rock bottom. It's been a while since I started being like this. I have a sickness. The confused syndrome. Why is this happening? I have no clue. I'm sure Spring Break will help me sort things out. I can't wait for Summer. It's something I've been looking forward to since September.

It's also been a while since I haven't sighed in a blog. That's not a good thing either. I think I need to cheer up, but I'm not the type of person who can cheer herself up. I'm the type of person who just gets worse and worse and is helpless to do anything about it. I keep thinking "one day soon", but why can't it be now? Why can't I be strong enough to give myself new aspirations? Why can't I aim to be happy? Or maybe this is all in my head. My poor little confused head. Well, maybe not little.

Think "win-win"? I don't think I've been doing that a lot lately. It's time to put some of these Go! lessons to work. It's going to be hard, but I can do it. I know I can...I know I can, but why do I have such hesitation...?